Pruning

A beautiful day here in Michigan. Lots of sunshine. I love spring that's for sure everything is green and blooming.
I pulled some weeks up along the house. Then trimmed the dead branches off the Japanese
Maple tree. Winter hit it hard and I am hoping with pruning it will fair a bit better. So far I did grab off all the dead once and new leaves are finally starting to pop so that's good. Hopefully it will fill in soon.

Then I sat on the Patio and decided to knit for a bit. Relaxing is a good thing. I need to be kinder to me. As my husband said *Your always helping others. So please
relax and take care of you!* So I am listening.

Pruning I think happens to when you realize after cancer how different you body feels
after treatment. Most days I feel good but as I posted Fatigue is still one issue years later that has me in its grips.

When I was in treatment all three times when my kids were in school I slept a lot. I thought I was turning into Rip Van Winkle at one point. Chemo is cumlative and in the beginning it wasn't bad. But mid way..It stunk because my counts were low to start out with. So that said. Low white counts are not a good thing and I had shots to bring that up. But still I did not escape the fatigue.

I think the one thing at really gets me is my last form of treatment was in 2001 the third. I still at times just get down right exhausted and then it hits. If I knew and could plan it. I would. But hits and hits hard.

Its funny some days I feel so good now. Other days well are not so great. But I have to remember I have a cancer that is stable not cured. I hate the word terminal,but no matter how I cut it, it is what it is. But then ...HAH! Life is terminal no one gets out alive.