Busy

This month has been extremely crazy. I have to remind myself on a regular basis its not what I can't do that matters. But what I can do and do do daily.
One thing I am finding horribly hard. That's being a caregiver with my own health the way it is.
This damn fatigue that lingers is so annoying at times. It hits me like a speeding freight train at times. Then all I can do is sleep.
I keep thinking at times if I had to radiation of any type to the head and neck area again would I. I keep thing no way. As my radiation oncologist as said *It will get better in time!* But she has no answers to how much time or when. Having had it in 2001 you might think now would be a great time.
I guess maybe I need to be happy it did the job and deal with each day as it comes. Be happy to have them tired or not.
I just wish someone would invent something to help cancer patients..who are dealing with fatigue issues. Other then taking time outta our lives to just sleep. I also think people who do not have cancer, totally get this fatigue. Its sometimes brain numbing and something noting helps but to sleep. Its never planned it just hits.
So that said. I try and rest as much as possible then when it does hit. I m not totally outta commission. But still when it does like today. Its so annoying.