Defining

Its funny how people perceive cancer patients. One thing I know is that I do not want them to define me due to my cancer.

I was reading another blog today . It was beautiful. I made me stop and think about how advance cancer affected my life as well as that of my family , husband and children.

It made me realize how many Moms are dealing with cancer on a day to day basis and how we might affect others not even realizing it.

It reminded me just how important family was when I first found out I was sick . It also reminded me how tightly I held my children during treatment trying so hard to soaking every ounce of each and every second with them. Making sure Mom was mom and nothing more.

What does define me is yes I am a mom,wife, grandma,daughter, sister friend and then I might have a space for cancer survivor. Its funny there is so much in my life that cancer takes second fiddle even at its worst. I dug deep fighting to keep so many things first and not let cancer have the upper hand.

But defining me .Never.

Cancer makes us hug our kids a little longer. Hold tightly to making sure they know we love them right here and now. Not later. Every glimpse is precious and hug a gift.

Its funny because even with cancer in my life. No one knows how long they have. No one. I am always always shocked when we loose someone and we have lately and I am still here. But as someone said recently . Life is to be lived today in small defining moments, making sure those around us know we care by our actions and the words. Leave nothing to chance.

I am so glad those who are close to me know me so much better then this one person.