Just Some Thoughts.

I have not been writing much on cancer lately. In fact I was really getting out of the mode of writing about it. In August of 2010 I was dxed with Nodular Basal Cell Carcinoma. The most common form of skin cancer. One that is taken very lightly by people. Simply because you get it they remove it and not much is done. Most have 99% chance of a cure. That is all great and well for most.
However if you have had another cancer or like me had skin cancer on the radiation field of my first cancer. My risks are higher and this is a secondary cancer. I brought a ton of things back from the past and those things really threw me in a rip tide of feelings.

I guess I am writing this because I need to but I need to address something else. Its simple as a long time survivor coming up on fourteen years soon. There are many issues to survivor ship its never easy. At least from where I sit. Having one cancer was problematic now two. Very interesting. Plus all the long term issues that have come up due to the disease and its treatment.  You fix one thing and you gain other things . For me cancer is the gift that keeps on giving. To be honest there is a lot of thought on where does this all stop!

I am not giving up by all means. NO WAY! However new to the list of things on top of the mountain is a General Anxiety Disorder and depression as well. Hindsight twenty twenty . I have to wonder when this started exactly but I know it can't go on with out treatment from a professional.

I grabbed all the strength I could muster made an appointment after seeing my Oncologist . Who gave me a referral. To see a friend of his at the Cancer Center.  I was nicely surprised and thankful that I finally am addressing this.

Also come to find out that other things need checking first such as my Thyroid Levels and a few others to be sure we are not having to up my medications for my Thyroid first...to see if there is an improvement. Or if due to a Vitamin D insufficient might be part of it with the Thyroid. So Is this true anxiety yes...but is it caused by a chemical or hormonal imbalance. So a allot to consider. Before full medications at this point. So there is a lot to consider before any new medications are given . So more blood work in the morning to make sure where we stand.

Truthfully I use to be able to stuff things down and move on with things. I am finding that hard and am glad I was able to discuss that. Cancer is tough life altering and to be honest a lot to figure out. Long term issues caused by it are frustrating and if your not talking to the right people. Its almost impossible to at times to deal with the journey of all of this.

So hopefully we are on the right track. For now its Ativan at night or when needed for the anxiety. So far just at night. Simply because of  dental surgery coming up and the anxiety that comes with it. Other wise it makes sense to check out all of the above and not go on other medications I may not need.

More updates later.

P.S If your a cancer patient reading this. Please talk to your Doctors if you feel you have some of the same issues and need help.